So while I’m on the topic of goals for twenty-ten…I’m not sure if it was written…but since the journey began, I’ve learned to be a lot more spontaneous. I’m a pretty planful person by nature. I like to know what I’m doing, when and with whom. As I write this, I’ll have to blame my mom for that…since those where the three things I needed to account for each and every time I left the house.
With this newfound freedom has come spontaneity…which at times has me feeling a bit anxious. But, I know that that anxiety needs to be embraced…needs to be lived, because it tells me I’m fighting off some other feeling.
Now I know you’re sitting there and wondering what the hell I did that was so spontaneous to warrant this entry. Right?
Since I was a child, a small one, ok ok…technically a toddler, I’ve worn glasses and contacts. My vision wasn’t terrible, but my eye muscles were so strong, my eyes would cross as I tried to focus on anything up close. So for the last 28 years, I’ve lived with this…I never embraced it. I’d sleep with my contacts in if it meant someone would see me with my eye crossing. Only my closest friends have actually seen me without my contacts. So few actually, some didn’t even know I wore contacts…much less needed them since I was two years old!
On Tuesday, I finally gave in…I made an appointment for Wednesday with Saddleback Eye Center for a Lasik consultation. I had no idea how much it would cost me…which is sort of why I wanted to go to the consultation. On Wednesday I arrive, slightly nervous…and true to form, I couldn’t pass up an incredible deal. An incredible deal with a top-notch surgeon. I took the plunge that very same day…I qualified for the financing…I got my eyes all lasered up! I walked out of the office three hours later with crazy goggles covering my eyes.
Today is Thursday, and I couldn’t be more happy with the most spontaneous decision I’ve ever made. I am rockin’ some 20/20 vision, and I’m told it will get better in the coming weeks. Pretty damn awesome!
And yes, I did almost jab myself in the eye last night as I went to take out my contacts…force of habit!
The remaining question… why did I wait for almost 29 years?? Quick, easy…painless. I wish everything in life was this easy!!
With this newfound freedom has come spontaneity…which at times has me feeling a bit anxious. But, I know that that anxiety needs to be embraced…needs to be lived, because it tells me I’m fighting off some other feeling.
Now I know you’re sitting there and wondering what the hell I did that was so spontaneous to warrant this entry. Right?
Since I was a child, a small one, ok ok…technically a toddler, I’ve worn glasses and contacts. My vision wasn’t terrible, but my eye muscles were so strong, my eyes would cross as I tried to focus on anything up close. So for the last 28 years, I’ve lived with this…I never embraced it. I’d sleep with my contacts in if it meant someone would see me with my eye crossing. Only my closest friends have actually seen me without my contacts. So few actually, some didn’t even know I wore contacts…much less needed them since I was two years old!
On Tuesday, I finally gave in…I made an appointment for Wednesday with Saddleback Eye Center for a Lasik consultation. I had no idea how much it would cost me…which is sort of why I wanted to go to the consultation. On Wednesday I arrive, slightly nervous…and true to form, I couldn’t pass up an incredible deal. An incredible deal with a top-notch surgeon. I took the plunge that very same day…I qualified for the financing…I got my eyes all lasered up! I walked out of the office three hours later with crazy goggles covering my eyes.
Today is Thursday, and I couldn’t be more happy with the most spontaneous decision I’ve ever made. I am rockin’ some 20/20 vision, and I’m told it will get better in the coming weeks. Pretty damn awesome!
And yes, I did almost jab myself in the eye last night as I went to take out my contacts…force of habit!
The remaining question… why did I wait for almost 29 years?? Quick, easy…painless. I wish everything in life was this easy!!
That is very cool!
ReplyDeleteI remember that little girl too.
I don't know how it can be, but I think you are even more beautiful today. ;-)
Spontaneous looks good on you.
That's very sweet, Peter Paul!! :) Thank you!
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