Last night as I laid in bed struggling to fall asleep – I started
to think of all of the people I’m thankful for.
Sidebar: You
can file this under the random things I do, but any time I have trouble falling
asleep, or feel like I’m struck in a rut, I will always start to count my
blessing. I’ll make lists of
things and people I’m thankful for.
I’ll start rattling them off out loud for no one but myself and Stella
to hear. I’ll write notes to
friends. Being thankful seems to
turn my attitude around, centers me and calms me.
As I lay there thinking about the incredible weekend I just
had – I started thinking about all of the people who’ve come into my life. Many have stayed. Some have been around for a moment and
left. Some have been around for
awhile, and we’ve parted ways. But
as I thought about each of those people who came and went – they’ve had just as
a profound impact on shaping the person I am today.
Each random person who I’ve met and connected with – and let’s
face it, this category is probably the largest as I seem to connect easily with
most people – has taught me something about myself, others or the world I live
in. Each random boy in a bar and
friendly cab driver – each friend-of-a-friend, friend, boyfriend, crush and
each drinking buddy. Every one of
those people is a part of my story.
As I continued down this memory lane I started to be grateful
for all of the times I was disappointed, hurt, confused and let-down. I was grateful for each time I felt
lost and unsure. Each of these
times brought me closer to where I am today.
Sure, I think things can change in my life – and they
probably will again and again.
But the one thing I know for certain in this world – right here
is where I’m supposed to be.
And I’m grateful for this moment – these people here with me
now – and those who have been a part of my journey and self-discovery. I’m grateful for all of the opportunities
I’ve had, and the courage I have to step outside of my comfort zone to create
those opportunies – because things don’t just happen, we allow them to happen. I’m thankful for the experiences and
all of the moments. I don’t have
to understand any of it – I just have to trust that it’s all part of a
plan. And it’s all pushing me to
where I’ll end up and who I’ll continue to grow to be.
I’m thankful for the thens and I’m thankful for the whens.
And... because I'm still on a music high... I think this song is an appropriate little diddy for how I'm feeling.
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