Mixed Emotions

Tomorrow is the day it begins. Well officially.

I’d be silly to say getting to THIS day hasn’t been a journey.

As I sit here in an apartment that I was SO excited to have, I’m feeling a little sad. I’m sad that I’m leaving it. Leaving this chapter. I’ve spent the week selling off my “things” on Craigslist. Things I worked hard to get – and then I watch them get carried off in someone elses hands. I’ve spent a lot of time putting labels on the things in my life – do I need it? Will I miss it if I don’t have it anymore? Can it be in storage, or does it have to be WITH me?

And despite what Pete says…Stella totally gets that I’m leaving. She’s been extra snuggly and lovey. She knows when there are boxes and suitcases all over the place something is going to happen. I’m going to miss her like crazy. We’ve been through a lot together – yes, I know it sounds silly. But there have been times when it felt like the world walked out. Not Stella. She was right there to remind me she needed water and food, to find a warm spot in the crook of my arm at night, and to bite my toes when I went to the bathroom in the morning. I’m lucky though. Meeshie is going to be a step-mom to Stella Mae while I’m out figuring out the next steps. She’ll love on her like I do…and her nails are WAY longer, so I’m sure Stella will appreciate that!

The good thing about leaving town for a few months, so many people want to spend time with me. Ahhh…Anna and her quality time. I truly heart my time with the people I love. It’s not good-bye with them – but I’m definitely going to miss my friends out here.

With all of this seemingly sadness washing over me…I’m equally full of excitement and happiness. I’m SO excited to see my friends in Chicago. To have drinks with Curt, Stacey, to hang out with Liza and Matt and Aubs. To spend time in one of my favorite cities. AND to be going home. Be serious!! Talks and wine consumption with my bestest friend on this planet. Putting on my “dancing pants” to hang out with Princess Kamilah. Hanging out with my beautiful cousins. And having time to be with my parents. I’m a really lucky girl.

I’m so grateful for the people in my life – and the opportunities I’ve been given. Cheers to the journey. I’ll see you in Chicago and Michigan!