In the past, great change has often been preceded by great
sadness or great opportunities.
I’ve either followed my heart or my dreams. All of those changes, almost always, involved a move – a
restart – a change of zip code.
This time seemed different. While there has been great change in my life as of late –
it’s been welcomed change. Change
that was needed to get my happy back.
Back in July, I spent some time back in Michigan and in Chicago – the
trip was medicinal and therapeutic in the most simple and organic of ways. I spent time outside and on the
lake. I put my toes in the sand
and stared up at the stars. I was
able to surround myself with a few of those people who I admire, adore and
cherish – those who are love me for me.
I made a vow to myself on that trip that things would change when I got
back to Austin. That I’d
recalibrate and begin living for me again – which meant going after that which
inspires, excites, scares and motivates me.
I got home from that trip and was on fire. Then, I was essentially fired.
All of this brought up a ton within me. I was hurt, betrayed, confused and relieved. But deep down, I knew that this was
happening for a reason. Something
better was out there for me.
Something I wouldn’t or
couldn’t see before.
I decided that more than anything I needed to be surrounded
by those who love me for me – silly, random, strong-willed, out-spoken,
empathetic, outgoing and loving me.
My heart felt lost and I knew where I’d find it – and find me. So the pup and I embarked on an
adventure to California and places in between.
Being in the car that long alone stirs up a lot. Being with that many friends who love
you, whose hugs you can actually feel when you close your eyes – brought about
calmness.
I thought I knew what I was going to do… then I headed back
to Austin.
I can’t explain the draw – but there is something in me that
is telling me to go back west. I
don’t know if I belong in California again. And if I do if it’s LA, Orange County, San Diego or the Bay
Area. Maybe it’s Seattle or
Portland. Or maybe I just need to
be away from Austin. I’m not
entirely sure – but after spending a few weeks listening to the battling of my head
and my heart – I decided I’m ready to embrace it. And head west...to Scottsdale.
I’m still going after that which inspires, excites, scares
and motivates me. And I’m excited
to be working on something super exciting with some friends. This time I’m following my heart, my
dreams and my instincts. My change
in zip code may be temporary, it might change a few times still and it might
become permanent – I’m finding peace with any of these outcomes. I’m an adventurer with an amazing group
of people scattered around who I love and who love me – with every stop I learn
more. More about myself, my goals
and dreams and my place in this world.
“Not all those
who wander are lost” – J.R.R. Tolkein
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Now... someone plan me a going away party!!
Oh no! I mean, good for you, but bad for us Austinites who will miss you! Let's run next week so I can hear all the deets.
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